I guess I'm just not into the devil thing.

I have given up on the Satanic Versus. Here's why:

It was around the time Chamcha was just beginning his transformation into the devil, horns had appeared and his body was suspiciously goat-like. Specifically, though, it was the time just after he was arrested and forced to eat his own goat-like poo pellets that I was like -- I'm going to barf.

All day long, I sweat over commas, hyphens (particularly the modifying kind), words like revitalizing and rejuvenating (which some of you may not know mean completely different things), and whether my work laptop is going to get stolen after I leave for the night. So, when I'm on stinky, delayed, horrendous Muni with a brain that's been chopped into a million pieces over the last, oh, 10 to 12 hours, the last thing I want to read about is someone being forced to eat their own shit. Sorry, but I just can't do it. (That scene is Trainspotting when Ewan McGregor dives into the toilet still kind of gets to me. Ewwwwwwwwwwwwww.)

And the thing is, if you know me, then you know that I'm not really into "light" reading either. I did read Eat, Pray, Love, but I hated it, apparently along with everyone else who read it, so how the hell did it get so f'ing big is my question. Oprah. Oh yeah, it was Oprah. So anyway, I like to read big torturous things just as much as the next word dork, but I can't seem to get into this book. And it's like the best book ever written, right? (Gawd I hate how saying "right?" after everything has creeped into our language, and now I feel old because this is probably how "adults" felt when "like" made its way into our vocab. Anyway.)


I did enjoy the research I had to do in order to even make it past the first 100 pages. I'm embarrassed to admit this, oh well what the hell, but I really didn't know the story of Muhammad beforehand. I was totally lost when it came to Allat, Uzza and Manat. I knew about the book's historical importance and the controversy, but I, like many other kids who went to California public schools (sorry to all my teacher friends), was pretty sheltered from most of that growing up and I hate to say it, but was not really encouraged to look at the world outside of our one-story house.



Nobel Laureate Nadine Gordimer says the book is "brilliantly enjoyable" -- or so says the quote attributed to her on the cover of the copy I have. I'm fully willing to admit that it's me. I'm just not Rushdie caliber I suppose.

Thoughts?

Mr. Irving, it's not you, it's me.

I love John Irving. But do I love him enough to continue suffering through "A Widow for One Year"? I just don't know.

I'm about halfway through the 1998 novel about Ruth Cole and her screwed up family. The writing nearly gave me a migraine yesterday. The narrator jumps between the past, present and future in just about every train of thought that I don't know where the hell we are half the time.

I'm criticizing John Irving? I know, I'm totally. fricking. out. of. my. mind.

I of course loved the World According to Garp and A Prayer for Owen Meany and well I really liked the Cider House Rules movie. I consider him one of my lifetime's true great storytellers. Like Tom Wolf, Michael Chabon and T.C. Boyle. They weave together these amazing characters and plots layered upon plots until they peak and you're sitting there feeling high from it and thinking how did he do that????? I know that's really dorky, but I know you know what I mean.

A Widow for One Year was a bestseller. No doubt. But is that because it came from the person who wrote this?:

"... it was what a summer wedding should be -- sultry, something momentarily pretty, giving way to a heat that is unrestrained. Uncle Alfred showed off for me and my cousins by chugging beer. A stray beagle, belonging to some new people on Pine Street, made off with some of the cupcakes from the coffee and dessert table. Mr. Meany, standing so stiffly in-waiting at the receiving line that he appeared to have granite in his pockets, blushed when it was his turn to kiss the bride."

Genius.

So I've read, and I say that because I was born in the late '70s, that the World According to Garp was the book to be read in the '70s and '80s. In 1998 one critic said a Widow for One Year could possibly be the book to be read in the '90s. Bridget Jones's Diary came out in 1998 and Angela's Ashes in 1996. So, that critic could be right.

I stopped reading today when I did because I wanted to check out some reviews of a Widow for One Year. I wanted to see if anybody who knows anything had experienced the same thing. I was hoping I'd find a review that said: Mr. Irving hits his stride in the second half of the book. I did not find that. All I found was praise for it.

I think this is a case of It's not you, it's me. Maybe I am just not in the mood for a novel about love and loss. Shame on me, the title was a dead give away.

I also think that maybe you just need a break from what you're reading sometimes. Because in the last few hours I've found myself wondering about Ruth Cole.

I'll let you know what happens.

Dr. Gonzo. Raoul Duke. HST.

Hunter S. Thompson. One of my all-time favorite writers.

He once typed the Great Gatsby from beginning to end. “In my younger and more vulnerable years my father gave me some advice that I’ve been turning over in my mind ever since.” Just like that until the very end. Reading it wasn’t enough for him to learn the rhythm. (He was of course on something, but weren’t they all?)

He used to call up his friends at all hours of the night and just start rambling. They’d always take the call, too. They’ve said getting a call at 4 in the morning when Hunter was alive was a joy. Now it just marks a tragedy.

I watched the 2006 documentary “Buy the Ticket, Take the Ride” last week. It was a decent film. It had some nuggets and old footage that I had never heard or seen before. It made me laugh and it made me miss him.

Ralph Steadman, the artist and Hunter’s partner in crime, was in it. Tim and I saw Ralph speak about four years ago when he was on tour for his book, “The Joke’s Over.” We sat in metal folding chairs lined up in a school’s basement on Oak street.

Ralph had a slideshow of old photos. He played recordings of Hunter. He did an impression of him, too. It was about a year and a half after Hunter died. We bought two signed copies of the book and then devoured it within a couple of days.

They met while on assignment covering the Kentucky Derby in 1970, which resulted in the piece, “The Kentucky Derby is Decadent and Depraved.” Ralph didn’t know he was going to be part of making the story. You know, Gonzo.

Their first meeting as told by Ralph in the British newspaper “The Independent:”

“I had been watching someone chalk racing results on a blackboard while I sipped a beer, and I was about to turn and get myself another when a voice like no other I had ever heard cut into my thoughts and sank its teeth into my brain. It was a cross between a slurred Karate chop and gritty molasses.

‘Um . . . er you . . . er . . . wouldn't be from England . . . er . . . would you . . . er . . . an artist . . . maybe . . . er . . . what the!!’

I had turned around and two fierce eyes, firmly socketed inside a bullet-shaped head, were staring at a strange growth I was nurturing on the end of my chin. ‘Holy shit!’ he exclaimed. ‘They said I was looking for a matted-haired geek with string warts and I guess I've found him.’”

The rest is all art and magic.

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Will work for ... well ... work.

The job hunt continues for Alexandria Ann Rocha.

This time last year, the major corporation I worked for closed its West Coast division, leaving me and 1,400 of my colleagues without jobs. Across the nation, the number was even more staggering: 7,000 people who worked for Macy’s lost their jobs, from east to west, and north to south.

My mom was already in the process of losing her home to foreclosure. The layoff was the second time the Great Recession hit close to home.

Since then, I have managed to maintain my career, freelancing a long stint at the cosmetics company Bare Escentuals, then landing a permanent position on a consumer technology account at a marketing services agency.

Last week, my company announced that it was losing the account, which it has had for seven years. I have heard that seven years is nearly unheard of in the agency world.

If you have been following the tech business, you might know that certain consumer technology brands are undergoing massive changes to keep their footing with the competition. As it was with Macy’s, it’s a business decision and part of a larger strategy to keep the company from going under. I get it. But it doesn’t make it suck any less.

So once again I find myself looking for the next big thing. By “big thing,” I mean the next big thing for me.

When I transitioned from journalism to advertising 2 1/2 years ago, I was worried about leaving something I was seriously passionate about. What I found at Macy’s, in the work and in the coworkers, was something I truly cared about. It was devastating to lose both. At Bare Escentuals, again, I found the same thing. I was just getting started at the agency.

I am not afraid to write about this because it is the truth and it is turning into my story. In January, 10% of Americans were unemployed, according to the BLS. For a lot of us, it is not a reflection of the work we do and have produced. I know that is not the case for me.

My mom always gets goosebumps when I talk about changing jobs. So does my father-in-law. We don’t even tell him about certain job-related issues because we know it will stress him out. Their generations prided themselves on job longevity. My mom, in fact, is dating a man who has been at the same job for 45 years. It’s the first job he had after graduating from high school. My grandmother and aunts, and of course my mom, are thrilled about this. He’s stable, they say.

For us, this is unthinkable. If you’re not moving, you’re not learning or growing. If you haven’t worked within all areas of your industry, then forget it.

But now, I am finding it difficult to keep a job for even a single year. Employees seem so much more disposable now.

So here I am, putting my hat in the ring yet again. I’m looking for the right place, not just any place, to hang my hat for a while.

And by that, I mean at least a couple of years.

2 bdrms/1 bth, laundry, parking, heat. Please?

Wow. Finding a new place to live is straight up exhausting. Seriously, I think my stress levels hiked to the top of Mt. Tam last week and forgot to take me along, which sucks because that would have been really cool.

We have lived in our little place in SF's Inner Sunset district for about five years. It's a super duper apartment, right next to Golden Gate Park and just blocks away from tons of restaurants and watering holes. It has all the sunlight of a greenhouse, beautiful hardwood floors and a remodeled kitchen. And, jeez, it's above an ice cream shop -- how cool is that?!

When we found it, we knew right away that it was the place for us. Then after we moved in, we thought we made a huge mistake. The street noise was nearly unbearable. We could hear women walking in heals, skateboarders, dogs howling and people going home from the bars at 2 a.m. That's not to mention the firehouse two blocks away, the registers constantly dinging at the grocery store across the street and the 8 a.m. prayers over the loudspeaker at the adjacent Catholic school.

Somehow we got used to the noise. I now find some of the more distant city noises comforting.

Then came the winter. Yes, it's California, but that just means we are not prepared. The apartment has no working heat system and the windows are those old sliding, double-hung panes that have no insulation. I can see my breath when I'm getting ready in the morning, and it's annoying because it fogs up my mirror.

Again, we have somehow made this work.

However, it is time for an upgrade. The four things on my must-have list:

1. Central heat/insulated windows (This is just a standard of living.)

2. Parking (I cannot put up the good fight any longer.)

3. On site laundry (A homeless guy's tightie whities hitching a ride in my washer a few weeks ago was the last straw.)

4. Two bedrooms (I'm old enough to provide my guests with a bed.)

At first we were considering another place in the same neighborhood. Then we thought it might be cool to live closer to the beach. Now we're thinking of moving out of the city altogether, to a little place up north called San Rafael. Awesome downtown and it's closer to wine country.

However, finding a place with all four must-haves seems to be nearly impossible in our price range. Most apartments we've seen have three of the four, with parking and laundry as the wild cards. Then there is the weird sense of competition. Every landlord is like, "Oh! There's a couple just like you with a 1-year-old and they really liked it a lot, too! Better get your application in quick!"

Damn couples with 1 year olds.

Anyway, the search continues. And maybe February isn't the best time to move. After all, longer days and 70-degree weather in the city are just around the corner.